eng vr shz!
Sunday, August 12, 2007
@ 11:42 PM
I FOUND THE ENG VR OF SHZ!
oh, how do i
love myself.
like uhh, now.
betcha cant imagine that righht((:
hahah and i think i hvta read thru the night alr.
its alr 11:43 now.
but luckily ive read abt half of wad im supposed to.
or i'll be downright-ly dead meat tmrw.
and gahhs.
i stared into the skit for our njrc presentation.
i think we'll be totally criticised by the other excos.
and to say that im
"one of them" is super embarrassing.
cos my grp has not evn had any progress.
what more can i expect from other groups.
&that's why i feel so particularly dead.
like a small, little squashed ant.
under the deadly gigantic killer.
you'll feel so small.its only whn you assume the role, the dutythat you really realise what your job is.its only whn you have the burden on your backw others calling you the "leader"that you'd knw that things are not for granted.its only whn you have the words "responsibility" written all over your face.that you knw how it feels whn all the others fret.cos you'll feel it the most.it's only whn you yourself have experienced itthat you knw how bitter it tastes.it's only whn you've had enough of itthat you'll knw it's the end;and you'll hvta put a fullstop to it.you know you cant have the
"so long i have it my way" attitude.you hvta hear from others,how they criticise, how they think you are.this is whn you really feel..
that the worst is yet to come.and so you've taught yourself.to be disciplinedd, to have limits.but the limits had been broken.again, and again.but what can be done?alas, the answer- NONE.its just life.
you'll nvr knw whn it'll come to an end.
but someday, maybe.
whn you start all over, afresh.
at the other side of the world.
things may change.
things, may change.
she terminates her emo-rants.
right here. right now.
Labels: emoing.