rants about life.
Monday, October 20, 2008
@ 8:55 PM
argh, somehow i just dont know what to say when i see this whole blank white space down here. i really need someone to talk to. like, someone real, instead of me typing out all these shit in front of some computer/machine -.-
okay, i need to talk to
zhenqin ):
but stupid internet sms only limits me to twenty smses,
:/
rahhs and he's got cca tmrw.
oh screw rv, sometimes.
xxx
yeah, so nevermind, i shall come back to here instead of thinking about things that are kinda impossible. yeah.
the four of us sat down tgt tday. three hours straight of being emo was really unbearable, i tell you. t'was kinda emo, made all of us tear, and two of us cry (D: eeeks.)
and to think that i was always the one who held back tears during emo talks, never letting them fall. but now, look at what happened ):
xxx
i always thought life was hard for me,
life was hard because i always had to work hard,
just so in order to get the life that i wanted.
bt now i realise, if i were in their shoes,
i would have never survived by now.
my life might've been bitter,
but theirs, have been a thousand times worse than mine.
mayb a million,a billion,a trillion,a zillion,a gazillion.and that was why i cried.because i couldnt bring myself stand in their position,
i couldnt bring myself to think about a day,
when im standing all alone,
when no one cared for me,
when all people close to me were but gone.
right at th time they were needed.
i really cannot bring myself to face the harsh cruelty of
life.
and all these really do revolve around one word.
life.
xxx
and not only that, tday was really too much for all of us i guess. but we kinda knew how each other felt about people in th surroundings all day.
and yeah, it's kinda lucky we feel th same way. haha (:
xxx
我们曾听过,曾听人家说过,双面人的存在。
但我们是否真正地了解到,这些人,实实在在地存在着?
现在,我真的不知道,如何看穿人的真面目,
如何分辨好与坏,也不知如何是好。
更加不知道的,更是自己应该如何面对他们,
到底应该支持谁,相信谁。
在我们身边的人,
真的是我们所想象出的吗?
那错了怎么办呢?
可对了,我们又能说什么?
双面人,
你
见过吗。
Labels: rants